Three days ago the days grew longer.
Yeah, yeah, you scientists out there will try to educate me, reminding me gently that the days are not growing longer, but the daylight hours are increasing, and have been since late December due to the way the earth spins around the sun on its axis.
But to that poetic part of my mind, or rather heart, the day was longer, the sun shone brighter and gave me some hope that everything just might be okay. And it was so distinct, so different than all those other days over the past few weeks, I had to take note and write it down.
I don't get outside in the same way I used to on the farm. There is no Coco to milk. No goats to check. No ewes about to drop lambs. No chickens asking to be let out.
However, my bakery is walled in by windows to the north, the west and the south. I get amazing views of sunrise and sunset and the glide of the moon through the sky.
This morning the sun rose significantly later than this baker. But when she did, she sent out banners and carpets of red and gold. Even the far mountains to the west blushed pink and purple as they witnessed such a gaudy entrance. The kids and I were sufficiently impressed as we left the rising dough and the paused mill to run to the school. (Well, I hope you don't think we ran by our feet! It was by car lest anyone get terribly impressed.)
Temperatures are causing me to dream of gardens instead of woodfires. Not that I miss woodfires for the most part. It is hard not to associate the woodstove with lots and lots of work. But cold weather really does a number on me, emotionally, and as the sun comes out and the temperatures reach the seventies, I feel like raising my arms up to the sky in an act of worship. Well, to tell you the truth, I think I did that the other day.
I have so many blog posts written in my head, about digging up buckets of rocks in my future garden plot, feeling hopeless and depressed and excited and hope-filled all at the same time. I wish to tell you about seeing three of my kids run in the Big Bend Ultra 10k, and how great that was. About Indian Head and petroglyphs and mortar holes and cell phones. I wish to write about dreams and love and grief and parenting and farmer's markets and my customers. I kind of want to write about the many deaths that have come to our little community, via auto accidents, hiking accident, cancer. Not to mention all the deaths in our larger world community. Each of those deaths leaving me reeling and trying to catch my breath. But today, I must get back to the work that brings in some cash that helps to pay the bills.
And as I work, with the door open, the short sleeves on, I will be grateful for the light. And pray that the Light will shine in all our dark places today. Not just mine, but for those of you out there who are feeling a bit cold also, waiting on your springtime to arrive.
Yeah, yeah, you scientists out there will try to educate me, reminding me gently that the days are not growing longer, but the daylight hours are increasing, and have been since late December due to the way the earth spins around the sun on its axis.
But to that poetic part of my mind, or rather heart, the day was longer, the sun shone brighter and gave me some hope that everything just might be okay. And it was so distinct, so different than all those other days over the past few weeks, I had to take note and write it down.
I don't get outside in the same way I used to on the farm. There is no Coco to milk. No goats to check. No ewes about to drop lambs. No chickens asking to be let out.
However, my bakery is walled in by windows to the north, the west and the south. I get amazing views of sunrise and sunset and the glide of the moon through the sky.
This morning the sun rose significantly later than this baker. But when she did, she sent out banners and carpets of red and gold. Even the far mountains to the west blushed pink and purple as they witnessed such a gaudy entrance. The kids and I were sufficiently impressed as we left the rising dough and the paused mill to run to the school. (Well, I hope you don't think we ran by our feet! It was by car lest anyone get terribly impressed.)
Temperatures are causing me to dream of gardens instead of woodfires. Not that I miss woodfires for the most part. It is hard not to associate the woodstove with lots and lots of work. But cold weather really does a number on me, emotionally, and as the sun comes out and the temperatures reach the seventies, I feel like raising my arms up to the sky in an act of worship. Well, to tell you the truth, I think I did that the other day.
I have so many blog posts written in my head, about digging up buckets of rocks in my future garden plot, feeling hopeless and depressed and excited and hope-filled all at the same time. I wish to tell you about seeing three of my kids run in the Big Bend Ultra 10k, and how great that was. About Indian Head and petroglyphs and mortar holes and cell phones. I wish to write about dreams and love and grief and parenting and farmer's markets and my customers. I kind of want to write about the many deaths that have come to our little community, via auto accidents, hiking accident, cancer. Not to mention all the deaths in our larger world community. Each of those deaths leaving me reeling and trying to catch my breath. But today, I must get back to the work that brings in some cash that helps to pay the bills.
And as I work, with the door open, the short sleeves on, I will be grateful for the light. And pray that the Light will shine in all our dark places today. Not just mine, but for those of you out there who are feeling a bit cold also, waiting on your springtime to arrive.
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